Something Not Quite Right
It is difficult to say exactly when my palsies started. They appear to have come on rather gradually with me either not noticing them or dismissing them. For example, whilst using a computer yoga exercise programme I had noticed that I was no longer raising my right arm when it was behind me properly. Trying to get the arm to the right place was painful and so I put this down to just being slightly unfit in this exercise. I also put down a nagging discomfort in my right shoulder down to carrying an awkwardly large box, containing a bike for my son's birthday, round to a friend's house. A year later I was still blaming that incident and had been referred to my local physiotherapy department for some advice and exercises. Thus, it is only with hindsight that I can attribute these events to the palsies.
The first time I became fully aware and realised that something more serious was going on was in the spring of 2015, when I noticed something rather odd about my tongue. I'm not sure what prompted me to look in the mirror and stick my tongue out but when I did, the right hand side was 'bubbling'. That was how I described the rapid twitching up and down of different parts of the right hand side of my tongue. I could not feel these fasciculations, as they are medically known, but they prompted a visit to my GP practice. My doctor, possibly glad of something different to look at other than another sore throat that day, appeared rather interested in my 'bubbling' tongue and suggested that I bring forward my next hospital appointment.
My consultant, appeared unsurprised by my tongue, as he peered inside my mouth. I suspect he had recognised early indications of the fasciculations on previous examinations. He also had my MRI results from my expedited annual scan taken the week before. The consultant explained that an area, known as the dura mater at the base of skull between the bone and the brain had thickened. There were two possible causes. It could be a side effect of the radiotherapy or it could be the start of a new tumour.
This was not the best news but the consultant reassured us that it was only a small thickening of dura matter and if it was a tumour, it would need to grow many times bigger before it became a life threatening issue. He added that it was not possible to biopsy this area and that there was nothing that could be done about it at present. We would need to just keep monitoring it through MRI scans.
Over the next year, life continued as normal as I learnt to accept the right hand side of my tongue continually doing its 'bubbling' fasciculations. However, I became more aware of the increasing frequency in which my tongue bumped into the teeth when speaking. There was also a slight increase in the number of times I involuntarily bit my tongue.
I had also got used to the loss of range of movement in my right arm and now struggled to get it more than waist height when lifting the arm to the side. It became very noticeable to me how different my shoulders were behaving and so when I cleaned my teeth with my right hand my right shoulder bone would pop into view in my mirror. This is known as 'winged scapula' and wasn't painful just a very clear sign that my right shoulder wasn't right. Though the shoulder was not painful and my right arm only hurt when I tried to raise it, I had noticed more neck discomfort and this appeared to be an indirect consequence of the imbalance in my shoulders.